I'm melting

Damn you bloody heat!
Damn you to bloody hell!

It's hot, bloody hot. There's a heat warning. Great time for economists and politicians to push that whole global warming issue.

Anyways, I'm announcing that I plan on shaving my head bald for Labour Day weekend. What is motivating me you might ask? I've never been bald in my life and probably never will. It will be an experience. My hair grows fast too so it'll probably take 6 months before my head looks presentable. What's 6 months of looking a little weird in comparion to my possible lifespan of 85 years?

In my study group, we finished reading Anthroposophical Leading Thoughts. Usually in the summer we'll do art like paint. Last year we did the Platonic solids using clay. Or we'll read random lectures. I started reading some Steiner again. I haven't really been reading much of his work for several months. I've only sporadically been summarizing the chapters of Philosoophy of Freedom. I've been focused on other things. It's good to get back into my own personal study. I read other books all the time but I always find his work to be more stimulating and challenging.

I went to the library last week and saw one of those women who's wearing that religious outfit where their entire face is covered, except for their eyes. I forget what they are called. I am not threatened by seeing people wearing that but when I see a woman like that, it upsets me. I see that outfit as a symbol of female repression and as anti-female. If you want to wear a head covering, I don't care, go for it. But I just don't see how this extreme behaviour of covering your face has anything to do with being humble. Let's be honest and real. Some religions are sexist and unfortunately there are still countries that see women as sub-humans. Maybe this woman naively believes that she's being humble but maybe she doesn't realize she looks and is treated like a second class citizen. I'd like to have the courage to start a conversation with someone like that to see where they are coming from.

I saw this program about a Muslim community on a local station several months ago. The Mosque must have been in Mississauga but it was discussing how women aren't being treated equally in this Mosque... which is in Canada! You would think here in Canada the Muslims would be more evolved but this group in Mississauga seems to be one big old boys club. The Mosque had built a separate room for the women and they no longer felt part of this community. The documentary also featured some other Mosque I believe in Alberta. No where in the Koran it said women had to be treated like this. I believe it did say the women were to be behind the men during prayer but not that they had to be in a separate room. The men's behaviour was extremely childish. I don't know why these women tolerate this. The men just really wanted to keep the women out. It was ridiculous the sexism that is pervasive in that religion. I find many religions to be sexist anyways. I don't support any organization that doesn't give women the respect they deserve. I don't care if you are Muslim, Catholic, whatever. Most religions teach that being loving and respectful to others is what is important. Human egos create all these other ridiculous rules that end up taking people further away from the 2 simple truths of love yourself and love others.

Less of Me

Greetings and Salutations,

I have been working out with kettlebells since June 29th. It's a unique exercise tool that looks like a cannon ball with a handle. I've been using a 26 lb kettlebell. I got a dvd entitled From Russia With Tough Love for a Femme Fatale along with the kb. I got it at this site where I also purchased a qigong video. I decided to try it because it sounds really efficient for a workout. It combines cardio and strength training. I actually sweat when I do use this tool. I've lost an inch on my hips and for me, losing there has always been difficult. My goals are basically to get more upper body strength and tighten my hips and inner thighs.
The site's products I find are slightly overpriced but there are not many kettlebell resource sites on the internet. I did find one site that sells the kettlebell for much cheaper. I will probably buy a second from that site and hopefully it's good quality.

I have spent about 20 minutes, 2 to 3 times a week exercising. That's what I like about using this. It's efficient and I get a good workout. I hate working out so I like knowing that I don't have to put in alot of time and the workout does require that I concentrate. I've never been of fan of mindless exercise and I find my kb challenging. It also utilizes many of the muscles during an exercise. I definitely feel that it's better to do exercises that demand that all of you is involved rather than isolating certain parts like many exercise machines do. Here are some links to amuse yourself.

Wikipedia Definition
A kettlebell company
Cheaper kettlebells

Oh yeah, I am in no way affiliated with these sites.

Run me over

Greetings and Salutations,

Yesterday was a lovely day. Quite bloody humid. Plus my car broke down on my way home from work. There was a problem with the car on Friday and that battery light came on. My father got a new battery but that light was still on when I went out on Sunday. I'm taking the QEW highway home and suddenly all my gauges go to zero. This is probably around the bridge area. I was on the highway like this for 5 minutes and then my exit comes and by the time the exit comes up, I notice that I can't accelerate anymore. So around the lovely curve I go as I exit off the highway and it was a bitch to turn that steering wheel. My car was slowly decelerating and then it stopped going. I couldn't pull over so I ended up blocking the lane. I was quite pissed because my father let me drive this car. I got out of the car and started walking. I didn't have a cellphone but 5 minutes from my car, I saw someone had pulled over and he let me use his cellphone. I called our lovely CAA and the guy called the police because he was concerned it would get hit. He was kind enough to drive me back around to my car. Karma points for you Mr. I don't know your name. I struck up a conversation with him as well. I also chatted with the tow truck man. I was surprised by my chattiness. The whole situation amused me. The last time I had to pull over my car was during a really bad snow storm. I find it ironic (is this irony?) that I have had to pull my car over during extreme weather days, like it's either bloody hot or freaking snowing a lot. The situation didn't really bother me. Sure it was an annoyance and I was pissed for about 2 minutes but I was cool after that.
Anyways, the problem was with the alternator.

I never understood this whole idea about chicks who enjoy dating the 'bad boy'. Is this true? Do guys know of girls who enjoyed dating bad boys or is this some sort of mythical dating propaganda? I don't really like dating bad boys. I have this low tolerance for jerks. I might have gone out with someone who was 1/4 jerk and insensitive but they had at least enough qualities to redeem them.

Happy Anniversary!

I'm celebrating my 7th year anniversary studying the philosophy known as Anthroposophy. I don't know the exact date that I started but I do know I started around the end of June or July so today I'll celebrate this anniversary. I think 7 years is important and I feel I have ended a cycle of my life. A new cycle will begin for me. Not now of course, after the summer. I'm in chill mode now. I couldn't stress about my future if I tried.

I changed my picture in my profile. I'm not going for the messiahic look or anything. It's a nice picture that I took of myself by myself.

It's hot out and it's humid. I'm choosing to stay indoors.

World Cup and the Italians Rant

Okay. Let me start out by saying my parents are both Italians and so that means it's okay for me to be derogatory towards Italians. (or this is just my own excuse)
Anyways, I decided on Saturday night to use that window paint on my car. Well actually it's not paint it's more like this coloured washable polish. My parents have been busy cleaning up the garage and so they found this box of paint polish I got from this place I uased to work at 3 years ago. I was inspired to paint the car windows since we had 3 colours: white, green and red, which happen to be the Italian flag colours. So I paint on the side windows so as not to obstruct my view. I did the other side and then I was inspired to write (because hey I enjoy writing. I'm not really a graphically inclined individual) and so I did. I wrote Italians do it better and then on the left bottom bumper I write Eh! because hey, I'm a patriotic Canadian. Then I felt like writing on the right bumper Bush U suck ass. My dad saw what I did and got upset at me and he stated that I shouldn't mix politics with sports. I almost felt 'bad' for insulting the US president but that quickly went away. All my happy feelings of self expression disapated due to that comment. Who wouldn't want to be supporting a sports team and criticize a politician at the same time? It's efficient.
I chose to wash the Italian flags the next day because I realized that I actually didn't care about this whole World Cup thing anyways. My writing was gone so my parents probably washed that off.
I know I'm 27 and I'm getting reprimanded for expressing myself?
Loki is untameable!

I actually thought Italy was going to lose. Why? Because Italians can be little pussys. I thought they'd lose and then complain how it was fixed and how there were people who didn't want them to win.

I had to go to my study group and there was traffic and I had to drive around these fans so that I could get to where I needed to go. Not everyone driving was celebrating Italy winning and some of us actually had to use the road to drive. I know crazy isn't it?

I saw people who didn't look Italian celebrating in cars. I should know because I can usually spot Italians from non-Italians. It's like gay-dar, only it would apply for spotting similar nationalities. Like nationality-dar. I think these people really just wanted to drive up and down the city to honk their horn and just needed some excuse. They probably had a France flag in handy just in case France won.

I actually harbour some dislike towards Italians in general. I don't understand this whole celebrating my cultural ethnicity. I was born and raised in Canada and so I can only muster up feelings for Canada and not for Italy. My parents play the Italian music at home (among other music), they speak Italian 35-40% of the time, we eat pasta, my mother uses plastic to cover the furniture. Clearly I've been influenced by the Italian culture but I don't have any interest or romantic feelings towards the country. I'm also a first generation Canadian. I don't romanticize Italy. I've only been there once but I really don't identify with the country.

I like the term paesano (which means country man. Paesana is the feminin). I've called a couple of people my paesano but that's because it sounds good and I like the word as well.

Giving Up Thinking

Greetings and Salutations Earthlings,

I am officially giving up Thinking.
It's the summer and I have decided to abandon all activities related to thinking. That means for me, no more introspection. No more analyzing. No more caring.
It means I'm giving birth to a new me. A more shallower me.

I am pleased with my decision and feel that it is time for me to give up thinking.
I may get back with thinking in the fall but for now we have chosen to go our own separate ways so that we can work on our own separate solo careers.

I bid adieu Thinking.
Fare thee well!

Pessimism and the summer

Well the summer is officially here. I'm generally not a fan of the summer, particularly in this area because it gets so humid and I don't really like humidity.

I started working out last week with kettlebells. Actually I just own one and it's a 26 pounder. I thought I'd use it to complement my qigong practice and gain some strength. I got this dvd called From Russia with Tough Love: Kettlebell exercises for a femme fatale. Kettlebells were apparently popular in Russia. I've only been doing half of the exercises on the dvd because the 26 pounder is heavy. They are not like dumbells but look like a cannonball with a handle. I was sweating quite a bit during my last workout and I usually don't sweat. My legs were quite sore as well.

I'm almost finished summarizing my Philosophy of Freedom and am on Chapter 13. There are 14 chapters in the book. This chapther is quite lengthy but it is worth reading it because it discusses the value of life and deals with the question of optimism versus pessimism. I think for myself, I consider myself fairly optimistic but I wasn't always that way and was more pessimistic. I think many people believe that being pessimistic is more realistic then being optimistic. But I have come to see that the more realistic an individual is, the more optimistic they will be. I have realized that pessimism is a result of irrationalism. Optimism isn't about pretending everything is all skittles and sunshine. I think to truly be optimistic, one has to really struggle internally. I know for myself, the pessimism and negativity I have overcome within myself has been a result of great struggle. I still consider myself pessimistic in certain areas.

I stopped doing my mantra disciplines about 2 weeks ago. I normally like to finish what I start but I just had to take a break and reevaluate what I'm doing. You would think chanting would be easy but it's not. The more I kept doing them, the more impatient I was getting and I kept getting more frustrated and thinking that it's not helping. So I'm going to take a much needed break from mantra meditation.
I got this new cd program that teaches a pranayama breathing technique. It's used for cleaning out the aura and it's some sort of bellow breathing technique. It's actually simple but I find it hard to sustain the breathing style. There's a lot of praise for this cd and it's a cd program from Thomas Ashley-Farrand from sanskritmantra.com and so I generally tend to like his work.

I saw Mr. and Mrs. Smith last night. I don't really find Angelina very attractive. It's those lips. They just look too big. My friend seems to like them because he imagines how good they might feel if she were going down on him. I tried to explain to him that a good blow job has nothing to do with a person's lips. Most lips are pursed anyways when going down. Angelina would only have the advantage when going up the shaft. A good blow job is dependent on good hand mouth synchronization and good tongue action. If Angelina is good at blow jobs, it's not because of her lips it's because she would have good technique.

I think if Angelina would meet me, she would fall for me and desire to have sex with me. I would have to turn her down because I'm not attracted to her and generally am not attracted to women. I think Angelina would find me mysterious and would be attracted to me because I'm a thinker and she seems like someone who might be interested in philosophical ideas.

Happy Canada Day

Happy Canada Day. Today we Canadians celebrate our nations birth. Our country is 139 years old.
Bring out the beer!