Thursday, February 19, 2015

Crushed

Greetings all,

I recently asked my crush for coffee since it was reading week and he told me he was seeing someone. This was on Valentine's day. I actually asked him a week before but never got around to checking my messages. He thought I meant if I wanted him to organize a social for the improv group but I responded eventually that I was asking him out. I was a bit disappointed and also embarrassed. It really reaffirms to me that if a guy likes you, he'll do the work. I guess now I feel like a loser but I have to act normal when I see him again at improv as we have a show next week.

Maybe he did like me but liked someone else better and pursued that since maybe the girl was more explicit in showing her interest in him. Oh well, just another reason why it sucks to be an introvert.

I guess I can't linger too much over this as there are plenty of fish in the sea.

Juice Fast

Greetings all,

I decided to try a juice fast, initially for 10 days. A couple of weeks ago I watched Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead and thought I'd give it a try. I tried the Master Cleanse once and I think I only lasted 2 days. Then I had intense cravings for junk food. Normally my cravings are mild and usually I crave more just before my period but I never had the desire for junk food so intensely as when I came off this cleanse.

My mom paid a juicer under $100. I completed Day 3 and have been hungry throughout this whole ordeal. I think I might just do a 5 day fast instead. I feel I should give it an honest go, unlike when I tried the Master Cleanse and quit early.

I've been having headaches all day on Day 1 and 2 and not so much today. Just sparingly experiencing headaches. My brain doesn't seem to work as well either. I feel out of it, slow and spacey.

I'm on the web site for Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead and so it seems like it helps people with weight loss but perhaps I'm not fat enough for it to make much of an impact. Actually I did see a thin girl try a 5 day juice fast to loss her holiday weight and she did lose 6 lbs and was more toned.

I'm looking forward to this being over but I want to see if I binge on junk food afterwards. At least with this juice fast, I am getting some nutrients because I'm drinking stuff like carrots, kale, romaine, cucumbers, apples and beets.The Master Cleanse probably had less nutritional benefits.

I've been eyeballing this bag of chips my mother has in my closet. It's reading week so I'm doing this fast at my parents. It seems like a lot of work too and probably expensive to do. My mom has been buying my ingredients and I feel like I use up a lot of vegetables just to make a cup! I feel bad in a way. It offends my sense of efficiency too because it takes a lot of food to make the juice.

I do need to lose weight and probably this is motivated by how difficult it is for me to lose weight. I could probably lose 30 lbs. I might have to work out more. I want to eat more vegetables so juicing seems like a good way to eat more vegetables. Maybe this will be something I do once a week.