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I'm taking some guitar lessons again as I feel I have hit a plateau. Unfortunately it's on Thursday so I'll be unable to participate in improv. I did go out to socialize afterwards with them. My instructor actually lives a few blocks away from me. I wasn't really sure what I needed to work on. He gave me some barre chords and will be giving me some music theory. Next week I'll be learning Hotel California and a Green Day song. Hotel California apparently has a lot of barre chords and changes frequently so it will be a challenge to play. I told him I want to create my own music, which is partly why I don't really learn other songs. I do know a few though. I know some things about barre chords but I don't consistently practice them. I practice them briefly because they are hard to do on an acoustic. He's also going to show me some blues chords.

I started learning the new organ cleansing qigong dvd I got this week. I like it and it's pretty simple to do.

I bought myself just before the Olympics started, an Olympic hat from the Bay and the Bay is a sponsor of the Olympics and I believe that the clothes they made are the official Olympic gear for the athletes. So in the newspaper, I see my hat all the time and I think how my hat is famous. I normally don't care to buy clothes that are popular but it's funny to see what I'm wearing in print. I like my hat. It's patriotic and it keeps my head warm as its one of those hats that covers the ears. It's gay looking and I like it!

Guilty as Sin

Greetings and Salutations,

I would like to get a free ipod, however, I must refer 5 people. I hate doing this sort of stuff but I just need 5 people. I already started this and so I would like to finish this. I can't back out now! (I'm one of those people who, once you start something, I like to finish it)
Anyways, I'll let y'all know when I've hit my limit.

Click here to access this ipods.freepay.com site

I started to organize my Steiner lectures yesterday. He's done over 6000 lectures and many of his books that are published are lectures. So I thought I'd finally organize that so that when I buy more books or single lectures, I won't be getting something I already have. A few of my lectures overlap, but nothing significant.

I got myself a new qigong dvd, but it isn't from the wild goose series. It's for organ cleansing and they claim it's good for detoxing. I saw the video yesterday and it looks pretty simple. I also finished learning a shamanic tiger dvd but I find myself enjoying the wild goose system more. The main wild goose routine and the shamanic tiger routine both take about the same length of time but with the wild goose I start feeling warmth sooner whereas in the tiger one, I might feel trinkles of warmth. Anyone who is a practioner of qigong knows that once you start feeling warm, that is a good sign. I want to look at other dvds and styles because I think it's important to expose yourself to different methods.
I'll try this new qigong and see if I like it.

My parents are renovating the kitchen and last week we had porcelain (I think) tiles put in as the ceramic we had before was cracking. We used to have one wall with wallpaper and my parents decided to stick with that and they had someone do the wallpapering. They also decided to add that border wallpaper. The wallpaper strikes me as very typical Italian. It's grapes on a vine. The border is fruit bowls.
I'm so anti-Italian, except when it comes to the sciences because many great scientists or explorers were Italians and in the early days, it took great courage and balls to stand up against the 'establishment'.
Anyways, the whole design of the wallpaper was so typical Italian. It made me cringe. It looks nice though but still...
I'm just glad we don't have those lion statues in front of our house.
Apparently putting plastic on your furniture is an Italian thing as well or do other cultures do that?
Unfortunately my mother does use plastic on the kitchen and dinning room tables.
I promise when I move out and buy my own furniture, I won't do that!

A Petition to Consider

Greetings and Salutations,

I have a link to a petition that I would appreciate if people would consider looking into. It is in regards to the situation in Uganda where many children are forced to leave their homes at night so that they do not become kidnapped or killed during the night. The Lord's Resistance Army and the Ugandan government have had a 20 year civil war. The children are at risk from being abducted by the LRA to join their ranks. The children are known as night commuters.
Please see below for more information for links.

Petition to UN and its Member States
To learn more about the Uganda situation
Night Commuters in Northern Uganda

Non sequitur girl

I think if I were to be a super hero, I would be non sequitur girl. Disarm and disorient villains by speaking non sequiturs. Excellent mental tactics. At improv, I have a tendency to say non sequiturs all the time. I don't know why. I enjoy it though, because at least for me, it keeps things interesting.

My friend, whom I consider my best friend and we used to date, thinks he's smarter then me. We talk on the phone all the time and I find he is one of the few people who understands me as he is a calm and emotionally mature and honest person. I just don't understand why he thinks he's smarter then me. He's skipped a grade. My mother skipped a grade. I know of an ex boyfriend as well who skipped a grade. Then I realized today... see this is an example of where my brain is slow in processing statements people make... that these 2 people went to public schools where it was considered normal practice to skip or fail a grade. My mother went to a Catholic school and she went in a time when the Catholic system skipped or held back people. My mother was put back a grade when she was 7 as she was an immigrant. But then they made her skip a grade, and she went from 6-8, balancing out things.
I went to a Catholic system, where everyone passed regardless of how poor you did and you didn't advance, no matter how well you did. Maybe if I went to a public system, I'd have skipped a grade as I found school generally too boring. So skipping a grade doesn't mean anything you PUBLIC SCHOOL SYSTEM FUCKERS because us CATHOLIC SCHOOL SYSTEM PEOPLE didn't have that same system of skipping or passing people.
I'm not bitter at all really. Different systems.

Anyways, I'm smarter then he is. I'm a different type of smart. I'm eccentric genius smart. I'm into concepts, ideas, creativity. I'm like some mad witch constantly brewing concepts in my mind, constantly twisting and mixing things about. Cackling away until I discover a nice thought.
I just object to him saying he's smarter then me, but I cannot convince him. I would be content if he said that we're different smart, that neither of us are smarter then the other. Although I believe my intelligence is more better, and like wine my intelligence gets better with age and so I believe that I will become more brilliant as time progresses and the efforst that I make with my anthroposophical studies.
I've asked myself what makes my intelligence more better then his?
I don't know I just think I have some sort of mental gift and I just think he should acknowledge that, rather then insist he is smarter then me.

Phone break!

I just finished talking to him on the phone just now and told him how I am writing about him. Overall he feels that he has an edge in intelligence and he does agree that I am different smart. He believes that if we were to take intelligence tests that he'd fare better.
I think that IQ tests are quite flawed as an intelligence indicator. How do they come up with these things? I seriously see them as limited because they are only as good as those who design them. What if God came up with an IQ test? He/She would have a different perspective on what is considered intelligence, particularly since God is supposedly all knowing.
I'm assuming a team of people design these tests but wouldn't people who were all super intelligent design a better test? Where does creativity come into play?

I believe that as I grow and evolve as a human, I will become a genius. I believe that it possible for me to take my intelligence on a different level. That's why I think I'm smarter then my friend. I expect in time that genius will be my normal state. I have perceived something within myself that marks the sign of genius and greatness and it is unfortunate that my friend has not perceived that.
I think this genius is within everyone but most people lack the motivation to tap into it.

Back to my brew... cackle, cackle, cackle.

Save me from Sudoku!

I've seen Sudoku before and this weekend I started playing online and have found myself addicted. I spent numerous hours playing. I feel like I've wasted time but Seasonal Affective Disorder has seem to have a sudden effect on me this week and I lack the motivation to do anything productive due to feeling incredibly fatigued.
Yeah that's right folks, even pretty girls, such as myself, stay home on a Saturday night to play nerdy games such as Sudoku all weekend long.

I'm wishing all an early Happy Valentine's. It's the holiday kept alive by corporations in order to suck dry the wallets of foolish men who have been forced to believe that you have to buy your woman something to prove that you love her because if you don't, it means you're a jerk.
It's a holiday for women to reinforce the fact that we hold the power in a relationship (some women just don't get that and stay in unhealthy relationships).
A liberated woman may choose to buy something or do something special such as put out via doggy style.
But we all know what an innocent holiday has become. Oh Mr. Valentine look what your mad idea has done. An idea born out of love - to celebrate love - has become an opportunity to make money off of gullible, pussy hungry men.
But what is wrong with making money.
I support making money. It creates jobs and keeps the economy going.
Slaughter away the flowers that give us oxygen and take away our carbon dioxide.
Massacre the cocoa bean.

Thoughts from a bitter single woman?
No I'm not bitter at all.
I will celebrate self-love and narcissism tomorrow.
I will make sweet love to myself.
I will whisper sweet nothings to myself in the mirror declaring my hotness and my undying devotion to myself.
I will take myself to sexual heights unclimbed before.
I will make myself melt.
And I will fall in love with myself.
All.
Over.
Again.

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts. You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary. But you sure can beat a good drum. "Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

I made my annual trek to Guelph to purchase my Steiner books. There's only a few dealers who have the books on hand. I know that Chapters and Indigo have them, but only available online. So I go to Guelph to get my books. There's a dealer in Toronto but I'd rather go to Guelph.
The drive was crummy and as usual, my worried mother informs me that there's this storm warning or something. Yes mother, thanks for instilling paranoia into my optimistic mind. Like a weather warning is going to keep me from going out and getting my Steiner fix! It was raining here in Hamilton and then on the way there it turned into slush and then snow. And on my way back, it was snow and ice pellets and then turned to slush and then rain.
I need a new book shelf because mine got filled a long time ago. I'm going to move out this year so my books will be more organized. I have a few scattered upstairs.
I had to specially order some lecture pamphlets and I got a whack of them. There were expensive too. Some were just one or two lectures and it would cost $10. I got in total about 15 items. I finally got this one book that I've been wanting for several years but it never felt like the right time to study it. I'm so happy that I'm ready to read it. There's been a few Steiner books in my lifetime where I felt like I wasn't ready for the ideas but was eager to learn about them and eventually I became ready to learn them. So it's nice that now I can read this book. The book is only 4 lectures and it's called Human and Cosmic Thought. The description sounds good so hopefully it's actually an accurate description of the content. He talks about the 12 main philosophical standpoints and that progress in philosophy depends not upon defending one and refusing others but in learning to experience the validity of them all. Learning these different standpoints is supposed to help us overcome narrowmindedness. I've taken philosophy in university so I'm probably familiar with some of them and he does talk about different philosophy views in Philosophy of Freedom.
Other books I bought include Colour, which is to discuss insights into colour, painting and artistic creation based on Goethe's Theory of Colour. Steiner had a lot of experience studying the work of Goethe because he got to work on his archives. Goethe was around approximately the same time as Newton and he had a different theory on colour then Newton but it wasn't really accepted. Goethe was an artist and a scientist and so he incorporated both in his findings.
I bought Broken Vessels which I think I was told had a different name and they changed it. Here he discusses how healing needs to look into the invisible as well as the visible aspects that make up humans. He calls it inner frailty (the invisible). I think he discusses mental illness as well.
Other titles purchased include Education as a Source for Social Change, An Occult Physiology, Secret Brotherhoods and Anthroposophy has Something to Add to Modern Science. Most of my pamphlets discuss the social order and economic ideas.
Mental orgasms begin!

I went to a friend's new place in Toronto last night. Again my mother was concerned about the weather and asked me if it were possible I could stay over night if necessary. Seriously, it was only raining. Rain is not that dangerous!
My friend didn't have curtains and there was an apartment building across from her building because there's basically 2 in the same lot. So I wanted to flash the people across because hey, maybe we're being watched - which is kinda cool. What can I say my inner performer came out and I would dance in front of the curtainless windows. I couldn't see anyone but maybe there was some pervert who was watching and whose heart I was warming. I would only flash my belly because I'm really just a tease and I think my friend exposed her bra or maybe the whole stuff.