Wednesday, February 20, 2008

A New Blog

Greetings and Salutations,

I have decided to keep track of my kettlebell workouts with an online training blog. The address is: Lucid I Kettlebell Training

I have created this as it will be an easy way for me to track my exercise and to make sure that I keep going.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Randomness

Greetings and Salutations,

Today is a new holiday for those in Ontario. It is called Family Day and today I am spending it organizing my accounting for income tax.

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I am still doing my kettlebells and I have lost an inch around my hips (which includes my stomach area).

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I have a potential boyfriend who happens to live in.... England.
I have nicknamed him my English Muffin.
We have been emailing each other since September and have started talking on the phone Boxing Day. We started using Skype after a few calls and we both bought webcams so that we can see each other. We met on Eharmony. I only took out a 6 month subscription which recently ended.

Eharmony asks you various survey questions and sends you matches based on 29 different dimensions of compatibility. My English Muffin, whose real name is Daniel, and I seem fairly compatible and oddly enough use our credit cards the same way. I pay my credit card in full but also if I plan on making some bigger purchases, I will wait until the beginning of the billing cycle so that I end up not paying for it until the following month.

He plans on coming here in the beginning of March. He is only 1 inch taller then me, which may be a turnoff or it may not. I usually like someone to be a few inches taller then me. I don't want to feel like I'm the bigger one in a relationship, which is why I generally find really skinny men unattractive since I am more curvy.

Other physical concerns I have are penis size (it has to at least be the minimum of 6 inches give or take a centimetre...anyone who says size doesn't matter is lying) which will affect the sex. The sex has to be decent. I do believe people can become better in pleasing their partners, but there has to be some skill and some passion involved.
Also I have to smell him. I have mentioned in earlier entries the importance of a guy to smell nice. Everyone has their own personal smell and their own personal smell down there. I have to like how it smells. Down There.

Alright, I am not just a superficial prick, I do have other important things to look out for as well. Forming trust is important so we seem to be communicating openly and well with each other. I am generally not a naive person so I am keeping my eyes open for any potential red flags.

We do talk alot. One of our conversations, actually it was on January 12 and I remember that date since I was planning to go out dancing for my birthday (which was the 13th) we ended up talking on Skype (which my coworker thinks sounds like an STD) for 8 hours. We usually get to chat more on the weekends as there is a 5 hour time difference but usually we will talk once or twice during the week. We frequently email each other so at least we know what each other is up to.

I think it is going well thus far. I probably have more to share but I won't at this point. I look foward to meeting him as I think he is totally hot and I want to jump his bones.

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I have done an open mic night at the Rivoli on February 4. I have another one booked in March and one this week. I'm going to be experimenting and figuring out where I want to go. I feel like comedy is one of my obsessions, I have to take it to the next level. It's very weird for me but I think perhaps something I should try.

I have been rather conflicted about comedy and where does it fit into my life. I hope this year I make some progress, whether comedy is something I should pursue professional or just leave it as a hobby.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

A Feeling of Betrayal

Greetings and Salutations,

I had my birthday on January 13 and decided that I actually wanted to go out and do something. The last time i had some sort of birthday celebration for myself was back in grade 6.

I decided that I wanted to go dancing at a club in Toronto. I invited people using facebook. I didn't expect everyone to show up but did expect a decent turnout.

I had a couple of my friends say they were attending. I ended up cancelling my event because a couple of my friends said they were sick. I wasn't disappointed by my friends because it's not like it was their fault that they were sick.

I felt betrayed by the many other people that didn't show up or RSVP that they were coming. I always thought I was a decent person but I guess people had more important things to do then celebrate my birthday with me. I was pretty upset that day and it wasn't until later on in the evening that I decided to make my way to a club because I didn't want to spend a Saturday night alone because of my 'friends'.

I joined this web site a few weeks ago called meetup.com and fortunately there was a group that I joined where it was a social group for women and that night one of them was going to a dance club. So I RSVPed last minute and went. One of the ladies bought me a drink which I thought was sweet and another lady was there I met her the prior week at a coffee meetup. So I wasn't with complete strangers at least for that night!
I would have preferred to have been with people that cared about me.

I am still bitter about this incident especially since I go and support the social activities of my various friends. I have probably given a more timid version of this story but there is more guts to the story and I choose to omit.

I feel betrayed because I think that you should have expectations for people. I think it's my right to expect that the people I invite should have the courtesy to make an appearance. This incident reaffirms that fact that I truly have very few people that I can count on.

It may not be some people's cup of tea to go dancing but just stopping by would have been nice. Some people are so set in their ways and don't want to break out of their comfort zone and then they wonder why they alienate people. I've gone out of my comfort zone for people many times because I have heart to show that I care even though this is causing me some degree of pain/discomfort.

I am very bitter and I don't think this feeling of betrayal will go away anytime soon. I may have a smile on my face but many people will not see the broken heart that I have.