Job Finding

Greetings all,

I had an interview on Tuesday and was notified the next day I got a job. I will be working for an insurance company. I interviewed with them before for a different position at a different location but I saw one day they had an office downtown and so applied again for some other positions. I didn't like the other location because it was a bit too north for me but I decided I wanted to work downtown so I am glad it worked out this way.

I am glad that I have a job to pay my bills but at the same time I realized that I still have more inner work to do. I have to figure out if I want to go back to school or if I want to be a professional comedian. I have to figure out what I want to do with my life and I have to think about it. There are lots of people that have jobs they like and they feel they are putting their intelligence and skills to good use. I would like to feel like that too as I feel like I am just not doing the right work for me.

Getting the call for the job was bitter sweet. I had been unemployed for so long - 1 year - and not by choice and it was starting to get to me. This recession took something from me and I wonder if I will recover. I feel I have lost something important. Maybe it's the whole Saturn Return concept I mentioned in an earlier post, I don't know.

I don't think it's fair that I've had to struggle to find work during a recession. I got laid off just before this recession happened. It is what it is but it certainly was not easy to live with. This whole year has been quite emotionally difficult so maybe the last 4 months of the year, things will pick up. Too many bad things have happened to me and it's got to turn around

Rude Employment Counsellor

Greetings all,

I have been using some government assistance in finding a job and initially went to a counsellor last month who referred me to a centre that does career exploration. I spoke with her again because I need a job and said I would be willing to get job finding help.

I've had 6 interviews (one arranged by an agency), so I am having some luck with my resume. The counsellor referred me to another agency to help specifically with finding a job. I spoke with the counsellor today but I did not like her one bit. I basically thought she was an insensitive bitch and she reminded me of my ex-roommate.

Her name is Shaila Shafique and she questioned my motivation and said I didn't seem motivated and seemed tired. She failed to show empathy for my situation and I felt she wasn't showing warmth and I felt she was disorganized. She didn't even bother asking me about my job search history and maybe if she did, she would have learned that I am experiencing some success. While I am open to feedback, I don't think she knew what she was talking about. She said a resume has to be 1 page. Mine is 2 and I have read online that the 1 page rule is not strictly followed.

I have weeded my resume and it is not my fault I have various job experiences.

I left a message with the other employment counsellor because I want another one. This woman was a bit insensitive. I have been out of work for 1 year, how would she feel if she was job searching for several months and wasn't finding anything? Her spirit would be just as weary as mine, maybe more.

Plus I moved here in April and am still trying to make friends, and I am not someone who opens up easily to just anyone.

I really think there was something wrong with this person. I come here for a service, I am not the one to be expected to be happy and smiling. I don't come either expecting them to do all the work for me so I didn't appreciate her ignorance.

Decisions, decisions

Greetings all,

I spoke to an employment counsellor a few weeks ago and she told me about a program that helps you to explore careers that would suit you. I was taking that this week and we just have one more session and a private meeting with one of the counsellors.

I think being at my age, I feel like I am at a major crossroads and I need to make the right decisions and honest, truthful decisions, other wise I will go through the same bullshit again.

So thankfully I am doing a helpful meditation that is helping me to look at things that I probably didn't want to.

So I am facing alot of ugliness in my soul but I think it is for my own good, which hopefully in the long run will pay off. I am facing my own imperfections that I didn't want to deal with. I feel I am becoming more honest about my own flaws. While I have always strived to live authentically, I am going through another layer.

There seems to be so much to let go of. My existence is muddled but hopefully soon I will get the direction I am searching for and forge my way through this world.

I hope to be at peace with myself.