Sunday, August 21, 2011

Back into Dating

Greetings all,

I recently have been dating someone who is in my introvert meetup group. I said in a previous post (Friends with Benefits) that I was lusting for this guy and so we actually started to date. He's taken me out for dinner and has cooked for me. I was a little skeptical about going after him but I've been lusting for him for a while and it didn't seem to go away.

He's a little out of my age range as he's 10 years older then me. He also is divorced and has a 10 year old son. I dated a man back when I was 23 who was separated and had the kids full time so I didn't want to get involved with someone that has been married, mainly because they have more baggage to deal with.

I thought I'd give him a chance but I'm taking it slow for now. Our group had a few barbecues at his place and he'd pick me up at the subway station (as he's in the suburbs of Toronto). I really liked his eyes so that was a selling point for me.

It's nice to be dating someone and having them touch you and be with you physically. I fell hard for someone who lived in England and even though we never were in a relationship (did meet once), I had a hard time getting over him because I felt we were so compatible and I thought it was possible to overcome the distance.

My attitude is to just take it one day at a time and see where it goes. I don't know if he is Mr. Right but I'll just enjoy the time of dating. He will be the first guy I date from meetup. Meetup is for socializing and so I didn't really want to use it to date people since I think it's for socializing but you know sometimes when people hang out more they become attracted to people and date. It is inevitable that some romance blooms.

I actually went to one meetup on Friday and some guy in the introvert group, whom I only met once, actually asked me out on a date. I was wearing a skirt as I am trying to be more feminine. It's really hard because it's not my style as I prefer shorts and pants and jeans so maybe dressing up makes me attractive to men.

I know for me, I was tired of doing the online dating thing. I honestly felt like the universe was cock blocking me because it seemed like things just weren't clicking for me and dating was a chore. It's nice to meet someone in person so we'll see where this goes.

Fuck you CNE!

Greetings all,

I'm pretty pissed today. I've been agitated since yesterday and my patience has been short. But today, the Security Guards at the CNE really pissed me off. I take the Go train to see my parents and have to cut through the CNE to access it. Normally I have no issues but now that the CNE is running (CNE is a family park that offers rides at the end of the summer and only runs for 2 weeks), I had difficulty today accessing the route I normally take. I wanted to take the 12.46 train and usually leave by 12.20 and I walk at a brisk pace.

The route I normally take was blocked and so I had walked through the entrance. A young woman said I had to pay but I notified her that I was taking the train and didn't want to be late. She called the security guards and they were after me. I told them I had to see my parents and that I would be late and this was the route I normally take. They wanted me to go take another way but I was not in the greatest of moods. There were 3 of them ganging up on me and I suggested to get escorted but they still were giving me attitude. I told them twice but they wouldn't allow me.

I had to access the train from the north side of the train tracks. Normally I access the south because the pay machines are on the south. I fortunately made it on time but I was pissed and rushing to get there. If I missed my train, I'd have to wait another hour and I didn't want to go through this.

I got home to my parents and called them to complain. They said they would speak to them. I didn't get the name of the person I was speaking with but I will do a follow up call tomorrow.

I just find it ironic that some organization that is for families, intentionally makes it difficult for someone who is trying to access the train so that they can see their family. My parents were also leaving to go to Italy this Tuesday so this was important for me to see them on time.