Hello all,
I've had a quiet summer this year. Spent my time working and learning and practicing qigong. I usually like to be someone who has new and exciting things to do in the summer but I guess this year was a quiet year and I'm actually okay with that.
Life is like that. Sometimes its quiet and sometimes its crazy and busy and exciting.
I guess I'm not always going to have an exciting summer and there's nothing wrong with that.
I'm going away this Labour day weekend as this couple at improv invites everyone to their cottage every Labour Day weekend and we camp out on their lawn (huge lawn). All week I have been anticipating this and even at work all I could think about was going there.
And when I get there I'll probably be like, when is this over? I want to go home!
Hopefully I'll enjoy myself.
Every year I hope to have a boyfriend whom I can take so we can share my tent and cuddle around the fire and we can swim together but every year I am single.
I'm always in between boyfriends. And the one time I had a boyfriend around Labour day weekend, I was in Yellowknife!
I didn't enjoy myself that much last year because some people said some things to me about me that I didn't agree with and thought was untrue. For some reason too I was trying to socialize with everyone, even people whom I didn't really like because they were so negative and defensive. At the time I always felt like I had difficulty connecting with most of the people there and that's what made it frustrating for me as well.
I don't feel that way now because a lot of the times the lack of connection people feel towards others is really something they create in their mind.
Reality is I'm not going to like everyone and not everyone will like me but at least we can try to get along and exist in harmony.
I am nervous as to what the socializing aspect of the weekend will be like but I am optimistic as there are people there whom I can talk to and enjoy being around.
I'm bringing my guitar and hopefully I'll jam. Someone else brought his guitar so I'm hoping we can play together for a bit as he has more experience and maybe I can learn something.
I wrote a letter to my soulmate last weekend. I've been thinking about this concept of soulmate and I've been reading this book by Thomas Moore called Soulmates.
I believe that we do exist before we physically incarnate as I've pondered the various existential concepts such as life after death, life before birth and just life and die.
I think we prepare in the spiritual world for the things that we are to work on when we are here on Earth. So I'm thinking we probably have selected someone who will be our life partner or we can select to be alone, if that is best for us.
The other concept of soulmate is that we were split and our striving for a mate is an actual joining of 2 halves. I don't believe in this because I believe that we are all 'one' in a sense. This concept doesn't make sense to me because I think it isolates me from people. I'm not clear how to explain it but my first explanation of soulmate is what I think makes sense as I've put some thought into this and this is what would make sense to me.
The book I read didn't really talk about the concept of soulmates the way I thought it would. It spent a lot of time talking about how to relate to people. He also stated that we can have many soulmates, like not just in a couple relationship but like friends etc. That makes sense to me.
So I wrote a letter to my soulmate basically feeling and imagining that we were together and I wrote how I felt and what I liked about our relationship and how well he treated me and how well I treated him.
Yes I am a softie.
I try to hide it by my tough exterior but sometimes my gentle nature seeps though.
I haven't given much thought about my soulmate since I wrote it because I think writing something like that, the fruit doesn't manifest right away. I planted a seed in my mind and I think in time it will bear fruit and maybe I'll get a sense of what my soulmate will be like. Or when I'll meet him.
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